rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Thursday, March 09, 2006
-10:39 AM
1998 : I taught her to smoke, she ask me to go church...
2006 : She smoke 1 and a half to 2 packs per day and i am a tuan zhang in YF!!!
How sad can that be!!! i went drinking with this long time no see friend yesterday~ Everything is so different already... i felt so naive to all the things i am exposed to... to whether i can trust people of whatever they say~
This 40 yrs old uncle who used to be the customer of my friend in her previous workplace(Pub) told me abt his 2 times divorce and he got a daughter 4 yrs younger then me... How Jesus respond to him... He wanted my no. i didnt know whether to give not. I am afraid... in both ways, 1 - this cut of a chance for another lost to come to Christ? 2 - He got other motives!!! I choose not to give at first, but he didnt let me go, then i just give.He message me and i return in a verse... He wanted to meet me today!!! But i am not going to response. If he really interested, guess I will intro church pastor to him instead.
And this friend of mine,I ran 2 pubs with her - one underground bf and one full time one..hmm... she experience lots of dramatic things that i thought only happens in movies but it is happening in her life...... How can that be~ I just wannt let her know that there is a christian friend with her...at least i am there when she needs me~
I know my somebody is worried about me when i told him that i going drinking... but i told him i wun get myself drunk, and i control wat i drink because i wanna honour wat i says to him... my friend also sort of stop me when she see me turn red. hmm... But this i understand what it means to be in a corrupted world and being conformed to it when ppl ard u are like that....
This whole thing somehow makes me see the need, the empty hearts and souls once again... Tell me, Father, what u want me to do, i cant go into it to bring them out, cause i not sure if i myself can come out!!! Guess, all i can do now is to pray, to pray that Father u will show me the way, where u placed my burden for the lost!!!
So funny also, a bro wanna intro me his colleague so as to bring him to eo but then they are introducing their jobs to me, which i have no interest at all... am i still going to meet him??? hmm??? is it for eo, or is it for the job or both???
