dailies
Thursday, November 30, 2006
-5:38 PM
Yeah... I am just so glad i am meeting Jieying for dinner later=)
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
-3:07 PM
This are the times we had on sun as well... hee... wanna post together that day, but somehow the thing just couldn work... yup... here we are...
AND... ystd, i never meet Yuhang, and is we are together for 7 MONTHS le.. hee...
Monday, November 27, 2006
-5:22 PM
-5:02 PM
Why?- Nicole Nordeman
We rode into town the other day, just me and my Daddy.
He said I finally reached that age,
and I could ride next to him on a horse
that of course was not quite as wide
We heard a crowd of people shouting
and so we stopped to find out why
There was that man that my dad said he loved,
but today there was fear in his eyes
So I said Daddy why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts him more than he shows
Daddy please can’t you do something?
He looks as if he going to cry
You said he is stronger than all of those guys
Daddy please tell me why, why does everyone want him to die?
Later that day the sky grew cloudy
and daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy,
boy was he right but I could not keep from wondering
if there was something that he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out,
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds to a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from a cross:
And it said : Father why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my clothes?
I bet that crown hurts him more than he shows
Father please can’t you do something?
I know that you must hear my cry
I thought I could handle a cross of this size,
Father remind me why, why does everyone want me to die.
When will I understand why?
My precious Son, I hear them screaming.
I watching the face of the enemy beaming
but soon I will clothe you in robes of my own.
Jesus this hurts me more than you know
But this dark hour I must do nothing.
I’ve heard your unbearable cry
The power in your blood destroys all the lies,
soon you’ll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look there below see the child trembling by his father’s side.
Now I can tell you why, he is why you must die.
I decided i should blog a bit...
The sat that just past shows me of God's mercy and care once again be it i wanna acknowlege the fact...
Waking up feeling week all over, but i know i got responsibilites for the debate and the san fu, so i drag myself there...
Wanna take a cab, but no cab plus teh sun was very hot but i felt kinda cold... then there was this guy in front of me waiting for cab... hmm.. amazingly, a cab stop in front of me, and a psg alight... the cab uncle told me that the malay wanna let me have the cab so she alight there... Thank God... hmm, i know her working place is somewhere near though but i believe this is still a miracle...
Reaching, i felt like crying, just because i feel so uncomfortable. I see my sis and bros... thank God for JY who keeps on checking up on me, took care of me... then i really couldn join them in the debate discussion and i went to sit outside... Sarah is kinda affected by me too...
When i was outside tradehub, i really couldn control myself from feeling weak and keeps on tearing then my dear dear come=) So nice to see him at that moment... then when i saw xiao mantou, i couldn stop smilling cause they were sooooo cute... love them so much, just as i love my darling dear... He say he wanna give them to me because i complaint i miss mantou... hee... Dun say we childish k... at least this is part and phrases of our courtship=D
Then Dear2 and Mike brought medicine for me, but i still ate mike one, cause he is medic mah.. hahaha... then in the night i ate my dear bought for me one... hmm.. then the next day i recover... Thanks mike!!! And also thanks Jie ying and also Rebecca for her angel... is really very nice and they keep me company during the sick hours=) well, do have to thanks all who are concern too...
Thank God that i am able to participate in the debate ultimately as my strength came back=)
THANK YOU...
Then the song above is sang by Sarah during sun, by charleston during talentime, I cried on sat when Sarah sang it to me... guess the work on the cross is just so close to heart...
Yep... then sun i went to Jieying concert after our church music appreciation day... hmm.. our church ppl voices are really so nice can=) Can all join the super idols... but i know they are doing for much higher purposes...Isnt Jieying beautiful... but the picture so blur cause we are sitting very far away....
And xiao mantou yiyi is Yijie, who she wanted it to be a him... =) She like to squeeze him cause she thinks he is cuter tat way... =)
-4:52 PM
Thursday, November 23, 2006
-9:10 AM
Thoughts filled my mind since the last page of Rachel's Tears
What a Jesus she would be;
How bright would she shines;
Back to her Father she had completed her race;
All accomplish beacause of that day.
Where guns and fear fills her school;
She was killed by fools
By "You know I do"
Loved life to her fullest not seeking the world,
The Love of the Father shown thru her,
Knowing her death did not put her to a halt
from reaching out to Jesus's loves.
The poor, the outcasts, the disable;
Seen the Jesus inside her.
He name is Rachel Joy Scott;
And the Joy fills her world.
Lived beyond the expectation given by the world;
Reason is grace and strength from above.
Feeling the heartbeat of Jesus is what she hope to have,
For life is not suppose to be what she is living now.
Knowing Jesus at the age of 9,
Committed to Him when 5 years pass,
People see a holy girl,
What she sees is a dirt below.
Images and what it has is just a facade;
for beyond the front she is breathing her last.
She used to be great in the past;
heart focusing on the thing that last.
Expectations build up when Jesus soften
when every part of the heart grew harden
The world became hers and hers alone
And she kicked Jesus out of the zone.
What can really makes a heart towards God last
Beside knowing the blood of His Son that He had cast
To bring upon the bridge once again
And cast out of her life Satan's fame.
She wanted to be who she is again,
And people will know her once again.
Perhaps people know her from within,
But the lies of Satan occupies her brain within.
Acknowledging the sacrifices of the Lamb,
The life that is not suppose to be in shame;
Shut the door of the faint
By the Words of the Saints.
Living the new life that Jesus gave,
She is a baby once again.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
-9:17 AM
ok, been thinking abt the BS on sat, Paul's value was changed the moment he seen Christ...He lost his comfort, his identity and everything he has he consider nothing.... Hmm, afterall this BS really does make me think lot...However, i have been thinking that it is so hard to be Jesus, and is the same for Paul...
Thank God for Rebecca!!! was sms chatting with her in the morning... hmm... well, just glad to be able to have this little time with her though it might not seems to be a big thing... really hope to meet up with more ppl =) though money might seems to be a problem...
Somehow, office seems a bit quiet today. I also didnt know y!!!
Monday, November 20, 2006
-9:40 AM
After 10.5 hr of sleep, the day is not as tiring, but because of the rain and my comfortable blanket, i am still late... the bus just ran off leaving me behind though i had ran. On the bus, this uncle loss balance and hit my head.I wrote a letter of complaints, not abt that uncle...(But won't be published)
Sometimes, i really loved sat and sun but some times, i really love monday to friday... I have never wanted to be a double person on what i do, but sadly i am. Why!!! beacuse there is just too much expectation that i had to live up with. Wonder will i lose my identity, but then, Paul say:"For me to live is Christ, for me to die is gain." He lost his identity, lost his comfort, lost what he want to do in life to live up to the calling!Paul is a biblical person... Don't expect me to be like him, else my letters might be published for future people to read and hang on in faith as well...LOL!!
Sadly agreeing that many times i am not ard those who needed me and wonder sometimes who will be the one who can truely accept me as who i am, not a hard-hearted person but a soft-hearted person who didnt really have any stong will to say no to people...
Felt that my relationships is so much being watched upon because my bf comes from a pastor family and little error wuld means ... watever shit... Just so irritating why she always comes to tell me this wherelse it should be a 2 person thing and i have to face all this shit alone...
Get the hell out of me! I am not some good girl that people thought i am...
My dear dear is just so nice! will i take all this shit beacuse of him? I had to cause i have started and there are no return...
Friday, November 17, 2006
-9:28 AM
How 16thNov is spent...
This is like 2 plus in the noon where i just finish my show and ready to meet the birthday boy... Felt quite bad i drag till so late... but... he ask me to finish my show one... and though i have watched the shows before, the feeling of not working and slacking at home is really kinda comfortable... hee...
This is my first meal... Mr chua cook for me de... though not very nice...But the heart tastes like the most delicious seafood and anything on earth le... haha... Is weird why his birthday and yet he cook instead of me... hahha!!! I am just demanding... and after we clear up the mess he made, we went to venezia to have ice-cream so we are kinda full...
And then we walked all the way to Turf city and sit there till the yf ppl come along... Can see that Yuhang is appreciative for those who message him and those who come=D
Just so glad that he's my man... not demanding and never fails to be there for me...
Ok... Wanted to get this watch for him before i am broke, but then, i am broke too soon, so... no birthday gift for him, but am so glad that he is understanding. A little disappointed i didnt get him anything though... at least i finish the whole plate of fried rice k=D hee....it was not that bad lah actually... But he got a new crumpler bag, a new levi t-shirt, a new game and also; i shop with him for a new levi jeans=) Ok... i owe u one k=)
The whole day is not some SUPER SWEET 21 or some big event, but i hope he is happy with the simple day =) I seriously hope he does!!!
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
-2:24 PM
Oh my... issit the cake cool!!! Yuhang, will have ur sashimi eh... hahaha.... no doubt, the above are really CAKES... in SG some more.... But i not sure if it will taste as nice and beautiful...
http://www.yilingcakes.com.sg/NetCode/Basket/Productlist.aspx?categoryname=Special%20&%20CuttingCheck out more on the above website bah... My dear dear which one u want???
-10:56 AM
"The Green Mile" is told in a flashback narrated by Paul Edgecomb to his friend Elaine Connelly. Edgecomb is now living in an old-age home some six decades after working as the head guard on Death Row at Cold Mountain Penitentiary. Edgecomb's tour of duty at Cold Mountain in the Depression-era South included watch over a quartet of killers awaiting their final walk down "the Green Mile," the stretch of green linoleum flooring that took convicts from their jail cells to the electric chair. Over the years, Edgecomb walked the mile with a variety of cons. He had never before encountered someone like John Coffey, a massive black man convicted of brutally killing a pair of nine-year-old sisters. Coffey certainly had the size and strength to kill anyone, but his demeanor starkly contrasted with his appearance. Beyond his simple, naive nature and a deathly fear of the dark, Coffey seemed to possess a prodigious, supernatural gift. Edgecomb began to question whether Coffey was truly guilty of murdering the two girls. As the story unfolds, Paul Edgecomb learns that, sometimes, miracles happen in the most unexpected places.This movie is my yuhang favourite movie... It seems very boring but he was telling me it was very touching. Hmm, seeing some weird weird photos, sometimes i really doubt if i should watch this show. It was NC16!!! Bet there are some gruesome scene... And this electric chair...hmm...
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
-9:19 AM
Oh man, ppl have monday blues but i think i got both mon and tues...
Waking up late, so tired... have been able to wake up but today i cant really do it...
So many ppl in the bus today, see that green mile guy again... everytime i took this bus will see him... an indian guy...
Francesca is back but i still sit at her place... suppose to take her job also, but i wonder what she do then...
Thinking of what i can do for yuhang birthday, felt so bad... we are both broke... will spend the day together but kinda broke to buy gifts...
Counting approx. from what i have now, i can only spend $3.50 per day... that is a lot rite... i wonder what i should spend one...
Hate the fact that it is money that holds me down again...
Pls be sensible and stop...
Just came across this verse in my notebook when i was scribbling...
"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." Gal 6:9
Friday, November 10, 2006
-10:49 AM
Been using Joanna so much that now, my company, my name is in wenjun it sounded a bit weird... Sort of not use to it didnt like people who know me as Joanna to call me Wenjun eh... hee... but anyway, i still prefer wenjun this name, just that not use to it...
Ok... going to share something how God answer my prayer today. Just now, on my way to work, i had a severve stomachache, then i was like thinking 'oh no, i couldn shit in the bus rite, neither could i get down the bus as i was kinda late already' hence, i resort to prayers which i know it never fails me in this case, then i prayed and it got better till i get to my office, then i ran to the loo... hmm... actually this is just one case of my many stomachache where God always help me. sometimes i would think eh, if i dun pray, then i also cannot do other things... so THANK GOD=)
well, i am like sitting in my colleague desk with nothing to do.. she is on mc for think 2 weeks or else will be 1 month, so i got to cover her=) but also not much things to do, as i doing the pre registration work of a kia car... hmm... i feel like blogging abt her, but like kinda not good eh, so i think i will leave it to sat with my yf ppl bah...
oh man, now i do kia, then mit like a lot... hmm... perhaps God knows i am not ready to take large volume bah... hee... but i am kinda bored so have been calling ppl... haha... however it has been a great time for me to spend calling my sisters=) been calling those studying at tradehub... hee.. not a bad time spend eh... Sadded thing is i wun be meeting JY le... must take care k, hope u will feel better=)...
Thursday, November 09, 2006
-2:01 PM
I heard ppl wanting to be a lamp post, which i think is og great value eh, shining for people walking along paths of life... And a lamp post stands firm in the midst of changing weathers and provide hope for missing people... To the one wanting be a lamp post, may u have ur electricity from the almight God above.
Yesterday i took half day off.
There is really not much things to do, just liek today which i am blogging again. Hence, I went to the doc, the merah doc as usual, it was good to see the couple. Yuhang accompany me there, and he was talking to physician Chen as i doing my 'ba gua'... physician Lin, the wife was talking to me and telling me abt her daughter which drifted away from her youth fellowship as they couldnt get along with the people. Hmm, then she mentioned that lots of ppl in her daughter class have ambition but she didnt have it, then the mother ask if she want to use her life for God's ministry=) She say she didnt know if Jesus wants to use her. Actually i felt that personally, if i dun work for the kingdom of God, life can seems quite meaningless and empty; however, physician lin mentioned one point which seems to awaken me... And this point i had knew it all along...
In the beginning, when God created man, he meant it for God and man to live together, to be TOGETHER, however, man chooses to listen to the word of a snake rather then the almighty God. The gap is formed. Only when man get back TOGETHER with God then will true joy be found again. Hmm, i realise that perhaps i have been wanting to get close with God but didnt really do it, hence emtiness began to fill me once again, but i have been reminded once again... i want to make a different...
Somehow, i often appreciate reminders like these from ppl i admire, it really woke me somehow...=)
Oh ya, continue from my journey, i went to eat with my deardear... hee... we found the curry noodles which was from golden shoe at bukit merah central, but somehow, it tasted a bit sweet... I had my seafood soup as usual, though not as nice as the market one, but still it was nice, not becuase of the food, but of the companionship=)
Then after that, we went to yuhang house to play ps2=.= hee... but seriously, it was quite fun, i mean 'need for speed' and not those 'fatal frame' or 'haunted house' thingy... the 'huanted house' game is like super stupid lor, is like a girl who met with a car accident ended up in a castle with ugly big guy chasing her and stuff, so she got the hide, then see that creeping closer, then will get scare and the screen will be blur out and such...and the thing is that girl is like harmless, no guns no nothing... -.- 'Fatal frame' is worse, u got to catch ghost with a camera, then is like there are sudden attacks and stuff... Eeee...
Then we watch 'Princess hour' & 'Jue Dui Superstar'. We had a great laugh at the superstar thingy can... hee... Oh man, i see the constantest, i am sure Sarah could get in if she joins=) Her voice is like better than lots of them can... Then we had dinner with his sis, so malu... think his sis is quite paisay also, hee... but she got a cool levi's jeans, with pink lining... hee...We had, omelette, 2 fish, one steam and 1 fried, 1 herbal soup, 1 vegetables for dinner... a lot eh... nice=) Thanks yuhang's mum eh... i didnt really say thank you when i left=p (she was bathing)
Then yuhang turn over his piggy bank to give me $6 worth of coins for me to take a cab home.. oops!! Both of us are totally broke eh, not totally, maybe there is a few coins left??? perhaps now i should have lah, the cheque just went thru... like super pathetic can... haix... but it is ok... I know that God feed the birds in the air, wat more i am His child=p hee...
I still got 3hr more to get thru, guess i will go read bible or read a book... hmm...
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
-10:45 AM
There is a higher throneKeith Getty & Kristyn LennoxCopyright © 2003 Thankyou Music/MCPSThere is a higher throne
Than all this world has known
Where faithful ones from every tongue
Will one day come
Before the Son we'll stand
Made faultless through the Lamb
Believing hearts find promised grace
Salvation comes
Hear heaven's voices sing
Their thunderous anthem rings
Through emerald courts and sapphire skies
Their praises rise
All glory, wisdom, power
Strength, thanks and honour are
To God our King who reigns on high
For evermore
And there we'll find our home
Our life before the throne
We'll honour Him in perfect song
Where we belong
He'll wipe each tear-stained eye
As thirst and hunger die
The Lamb comes as our Shepherd King
We'll reign with him.
Well... this song is one which i have said in my previous blog... which i think is like very nice also... just got in on my way to work ystd... but when i go home, though i had put it that i will listen to the song again once i on my mp3, i switch to next the next song. Reason being, i was so irritated by an old uncle who tried to force his way across the bus, though i was on the phone and might not heard the "excuss me" but there is no reason why he wanna push his way wat, cant he just like tap me and stuff, somemore i dun think i so fat that he need to use so much strength can... haix... watever it is, it has passed... God still love him... I should too... didnt know why i have been rather irritated and impatient lately...arh...contradict with the song i posted yeah... The weird feeling of being sick still hasen left me... I still dun feel that comfortable, though it was better ystd, but today when i wake up, it came again... haix... later might be going to yh house for dinner... hee... i know i am kinda being selfish when he always accomodate to me but i seldom to him, somemore, when he book out, he would come and find me in the eve which is wehn his parents come home and he will have no time for his family... felt guilty of snatching his family time, so i made the decision to make him go home today...=) Ok... i admit i will only think of this like twice a month... the rest i will rather we go out and stuff... Actually his parents are really nice, and his mother cooking is like super nice lor... but then i still like kinda uneasy when i go his house, i wonder why... Is it winnie or what... oh man... half a yr le and i still think this way, is there something wrong with me=p hahahah.... ok... i am not really affected by it, so no worries... ...
-9:30 AM
feeling sick, maybe i am normal or have always been feeling this way, but the dreams in the night though not haunting but is irritating that i keep on dreaming of stuff...
Ystd i remember i dream of a scene where it involves pr chua, jieying and dunno who... i know there is a "physcologist". Then I dreamt that Michel gave Jy a hello kitty guitar which the guitar is very special, the strings are soft, then dunneed to press really hard to make a noise... then is kinda cute... hee... then i dreamt pr chua saying that to learn a normal guitar is better then she give the 'eat rice' face... heee... weird arh...
Oh ya, i shitted today... hahaha....out of point i know, pretty sianz now, nothing to do, just one document in the morning... opps, later come a pile then i can fly, later there is coe bidding, i wonder if i needed to attend the mtg... then this friday i will be taking over Kia i think... Thank God kia cars is always not alot... but then, i will have lots of free time... hmm...
Jesus is all the world to me
Jesus is all the world to me,
My life, my joy, my all;
He is my strength from day to day,
Without Him I would fall.
When I am sad, to Him I go,
No other one can cheer me so;
When I am sad, He makes me glad,
He’s my Friend.
Jesus is all the world to me,
My Friend in trials sore;
I go to Him for blessings,
and He gives them o’er and o’er.
He sends the sunshine and the rain,
He sends the harvest’s golden grain;
Sunshine and rain, harvest of grain,
He’s my Friend.
Jesus is all the world to me,
And true to Him I’ll be;
Oh, how could I this Friend deny,
When He’s so true to me?
Following Him I know I’m right,
He watches o’er me day and night;
Following Him by day and night,
He’s my Friend.
Jesus is all the world to me,
I want no better Friend;
I trust Him now, I’ll trust Him when
Life’s fleeting days shall end.
Beautiful life with such a Friend,
Beautiful life that has no end;
Eternal life, eternal joy,
He’s my Friend.
I think this song is very nice because how the writer write the song=) like he will link the first 2 sentence together then form the 3rd sentence and such.... so nice rite... hee...The tune is like nice too...
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
-10:18 AM
I written ystd regarding monday blues... but, cause i gotta do my work, it was deleted... hmm... just talking abt how dreadful it is to work on monday, today I am better especially after messages by my close one telling me to focus on God...
I think that working for money really lifeless, cant link the stuff i do with God these few day... i am not sad, no worries, just that i dun wanna live life empty or persue over wordly thing like MONEY... though the sadded thing is that I HAD TO... haiz.... I am like left with 7 bucks to last me till the arrival of my pay... haha... dun worry, sure can survive, a super good lesson to teach me to save, on everything=)
Well, i realise i really know a lot but it just feels better and good when ppl reminded me( to focus on God) hee... sometimes it is dreadful, we will think it is irritating, but sometimes i think it is so encouraging though is like a known fact=) Anyway, just thanks to all who cares...
Yeah... next year i will be in charge of EO... degraded... haha... no so, sometimes, i will really like to be in the ministry that i think i am good in, but sometimes i felt that who am i to choose... actually i didnt even know which ministry i am good in... any ideas??? My biggest stumbling blog to all ministry = LAZY.... hee~
Today i was listening to a yr ago the talentime song sang by Kaiwei... never ever did it fails to touch me again and again...=) Thanks Kaiwei for introducing this song... really hope that on our wedding day, it will be like so sweet=) then i heard the other song, "There is a higher throne" in my mp3... is also very nice=) ... hee.... intro some other time bah...
Another song that i will want to share is May the Lord finds us faithful... i wanna sing at the last day of YF=) Thought this song is like so nice and also that hymn which have been sang for 2 weeks... "Jesus is all the world to me" hee... like it...
ok... i type the above in the morning then now is like noon, and i got my pay le, though i realise that it is totally not enuff for me to settle the things i wanna settle but is okie... i shall learn to trust that the Lord will provide bah=)
Yeah... anyway, i have took in total 9 days leave... on the nov 16 which is my dear birthday, first time celebrate with him as a gf so must... heee..eee... then is the church camp... and also the tong gong ying.... but sadly i still thinking how i should organise my cash for the trip... haix... Money again... i hate it... but sadly it loved me so much....
Thursday, November 02, 2006
-6:02 PM
knew my previous blog is kinda mushy... hahaha... opps...
Anyway, we watched deathnote in the end, it was a nice show... and i had wanted to blog about it for a lon g time already... it is just that the company computer always have error and stuff then cannot post pic and will shut down the whole internet explorer...
Well, Anyway, i have move into a new job scope everywhere, my job in cycle and carriage and also in YF... hee... in CC i might be taking up new job scope eh... hmm... hope yijie will come in soon=) next thing i know... i have identity crisis and also there is the responsibilities thing... wonder if i really wanna work full time as the lady boss tell me to... hmm.... moneymoneymoney... no choice but to work for that, but in the midst i believe that God will open ways bah...
Oh... then aiya... there is like so much to blog but then is time to go home, so i decide to leave it to another time bah=/
