Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours

Wenjun
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A member of S-Word EFC
Secretary & Treasurer of S-Word EFC YF
Likes to eat, sleep, watch Tv
Favourite Food is Seafood.
Fav colour is white & Black
Has an awesome Dad, a loving Mom & a doting older Brother
Thinks that the meaning of life is only when one is connected to the Creator
Target to draw closer to Him everyday.
Too many great sister God placed around me
A understanding & Patient BF
Wanna fight for Him together with him & my beloved brothers & sisters



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-10:56 AM

Boring tues. nothing much to do.
In the morning was trying to find the mtv by soulworks, but both me and mike failed.
Arh... he say he will use it for talentime if he found it lor.

Hmm... very tired indeed.
what to do later?
Cant find another leg to go k.
or to say i didnt really find. bet yu wanted me and him only cause he scare he shy.

what to do later leh?
hmm... One good thing is that i am going to leave office early today. going for dental at 4.30pm.
Changing colour for the last time i hope...
shopping, k, food, movie?

Well, i discover from taiwan shows that they perceive love as something a spur of moment.
the moment your face turn red, heart beat faster and starts to mumble sth u didnt really understand, that is the moment you fell in love.
My term: that is infatuation. People kinda like that feeling i know, that is why there are a lot of breakups here and there, cause people are selfishly enough to want that feeling forever and when they lost that feeling, they thought that they dun love the other party already. They began to search for the next.

Well, Love is definitely not so shallow.
Love: An intelligent willingness to do what is best for the other party.
NOT FOR THE OWN SELF.

Going the extra mile is love, commenting on our dear brothers or sisters and making everyone else have the same idea abt them and yet they themselves not knowing it is not love. Love should exist in a ct community? YES, because we have God's love but yet... no body is perfect. We often fall into satan's trap in making the church disunited. It is simple actually, it can all start with a gossip. Maybe the starter didnt have ill intention but words passing down will have different intention.


-3:05 PM

Yile had some salted jap vege ramen. haha...

Ok, then went on to last friday. went to china town with yu, intending to sing k but realise we miss the time. hence we just walk ard. and we went to this vietnamese food place. I still prefer the Chay Kway Teow... haha..

-11:25 AM

Super busy lately, till i have no time for my usualt TV watching, blogging, slacking life style.





























-11:18 AM

Thanks babe...
Hee, the junjun... so funny, we were saying we are tuanzhang before, and blar blar blar meow... hahah...
bestie... she came down later cause she gotta help our in her friend wedding this sat which means that this sat wun be able to see her again, but then , i'll see her later for CEO prac.. hee.yeap

See the 3 extra behind.. haha.. Then this was sunday. we realise we all wear black and white... haha... had ceo prac, drag till quite long but the aftermath, the dancing, the You In Me, is so fun and funny... hahah....
Oposite colours
And yeah, rebec, jiayoh for your interview today. hee..

-1:49 PM

7.50am: walking down the slope, looking at a tibs bus pass me by. Couldnt really figure what was the car plate. Walking a bit further down, saw another few tibs bus and saw that the one after the first is 173, 61 then i had a bad feeling.

8am: the bus should be coming soon, if the bus come now, the most i will be 10 to 15mins late. arh... ystd just late and my sup was telling me that if i pass 9pm, i need to take half day (in a kiddin manner)

8.10am: sms my sup telling her that i have waited for the bus for quite long hence will be very late. She replied saying: It's gonna be appraisal soon, how you want me write. then i replied her: whatever you think lor =) then she say ok lor

8.15am: usually by this time i would be at Holland V or somewhere there. seen 3 173, 2 77, few 174, 2/3 985, 2/3 61 , 2 157 pass by. i am super hot now. message ying complain to her. shit.. i am died this time.

and finally the bus came 970.

Called yu and wake him up from sleep. too pissed off that i almost cried out. waited 25mins for the bus and now i am going to be late. ya, i know its my fault, why i dun wanna come out earlier rite. haiya.
Yu asked me to take leave, was thinking of cancelling my dec leave and take 1 day off. then i can meet him for breakfast and after that can go ktv=) nice.
then i called my sup asking then she say since i half way there might as well just come and she will deduct the time off my another 1/2 day that i took.

For you info, now my company is giving 6 days off to those who had kid that is younger then 7 yr old and so lots of my colleague got extra leave. BUT i am still left with 1/2 day. Agreed with deducting from the half day. so obvious she was not happy abt it. FELT DAME BAD.

When i was younger, i always late and i dun really care abt it. now, i am late i will affect ppl ard me. you know working is simply not very fun, need to care abt a lot of things.
Reach office at 9am. at least the marketing always come at this timing also. and sometimes my boss too. last year i did come at this timing too and it affect my appraisal.

Didnt really like ppl to keep calling and waking me up though so i must try to compromise with myself.

Anyway it is obvious i am complainning. went to lunch with cindy at www.singaporechickenrice.com and got a plate of free vege. I ate 2 and 1/2 bowl of rice, chicken , raw fish and the vege with lemon tea. ya... not bad i would say... or to say it is quite nice. told her that actually if i mc i will felt guilty but today this was actually a thought in my head. I am weak so to fake sick is not hard at all, BUT i began to think i am super cat if i did that.

I asked God what He want me to learn thru today issue, if He could telepot me to the place, isnt me bringing glory to Him for not being late? But eventually this is my wrong and why should He appear to clean up the mess I've made. hmm.. then i thought i am sooooooo cat... indeed.

I shall read His word today, no now... after this posting. since i have nothing to do at work already. Ok... oh ya, suppose to be fasting, but i ate so much before it that i wonder this putting aside of physical flesh really is so? haha... but i'll join in the prayer mtg tonight.

ok, believe its time i should listen to God. to what happen in solomen time.


-4:11 PM

well, anyway, had a little dispute with yu actually but we sort of solve it. Simply that we want things to go in out way kinda thing. learning to compromise each other bah. Communication is a skill eh..

-10:40 AM

Been a kinda dramatic weekend for me.
Lets start from friday... i went to play lan with the bros... and i actually discover Battlefield is quite fun... hhaha, though i am like kinda useless in the team, but yep, quite fun.

I thought i learn quite a lot this weekend.
First, from the S.H.A.P.E workshop. what is it abt? - pls go to my links and click yf then you'll got the summary of it.

Yep, I was sharing to my group that somehow i think this survey is.... hmm... cant say not true but can't say very true. Let me share what is my 3 highest score, administration, leadership and exhortation. First i think the qns is what ppl think of you, hence i doubt the accuracy of my ans. But after all i realise is abt how long i have been in service that i notice what is ppl view of me, and that according to yu, it was actually quite balanced, the way the qns are asked. anyway my 3 highest score gifts is :

Admin, maybe i have it cause i like doing all these kinda thing, mtg min, email, blog and such. but is it beacuse i am too free at work???

Exhortation, hmm, did i really encourage ppl to be in ministry? do i do it naturally? well, this is really really dun know, didnt think that this will top 3.

lastly, leadership... arhhhh... i have it in the past???? nuh... dunno, wenguang mentioned, a leader will have followers and eventually i realise i didnt have it. have also those negative ones if you know what i mean. 'swimming', playing, having fun....hee~ ops

Well, then i shared with my goup, i was telling them, perhaps i have these 3 but when doing admin stuff, i kinda hide the leadership and when doing the leadership stuff, i cant be bothered with the admin. hahaha... and now, i am doing the admin stuff, which means i practically dun bother if i have the leadership or not.

Aiyoh, sometimes i felt that i really not humble. unable to put my priorities rite, maybe that's why Pr chua say i very 'cat' hahaha... ok, its nothing funny actually, but the way she say it makes me wanna smile. perhaps she got the bulleyes in my heart.

I know i was made for a purpose, it is NEVER ABOUT ME... IT IS ALL ABOUT GOD.
But then, i am like being so catty, putting my piorities wrong, though i sometimes feel like making it rite. Then embracing humanism without i even notice it, and also the irritating thing is that i am like a cat, inside the house, sleeping in the sofa, so comfotable that i dun really feel like moving or please my Owner. Sometimes i will want things to do it my way. arh... feel like scolding myself when i realise that i am the god of my life.

Pr Chua mentioned that a dog normally sleeps outside the house (Except those HDB ones) meaning that they will be extra alert when foreign objects come close. they are ever ready to please the Owner.

Then pr chua did ask me consider where i really want to serve in church, she say i can consider to be a worship leader for the 3rd worship service. At first i was really happy about it, and i thought i can really prepare myself, but now i think i am not even worthy to stand on stage, cause inside my life, how many times have i really worship GOD??? Worship is a regular practice or is it my life. Is God honoured if this kind of person were to lead His ppl into worship?

But still, i know God can work in different ways, and i am excited to see how He will works in my life. I wish I can make that prayer. To let God has total authority and rights over my life. Things are too early to say.

Whoever read my post, i dun care, since you got time to read thru such a long post, pls also pray for me now. That i may break thru that barial that keeps me from moving another step closer to God. I dun know what it needs to take to break thru that, perhaps Pr chua knows, cause she is always hinting one way or another but i believe i need to experience and obey cause i know i wont just listen and obey... me too rebellious le... hee~

Thank you wor...


-5:24 PM




-4:53 PM

And this scratch appears here. Arh... Maybe I'll buy a new one for my bro bah... ops... But i kept everything inside... so fun... my church stuff, yf stuff... all the photos and everything.

Ok, going to go home again today. yuhang is studying with pei yu and Jie... study hard k... put the stress of studying to my dear bf here... haha...

Too bored with life now. and i am thinking if i should go learn driving.

arh... but so ex... all my timing is peak hour one. But i think if i dun learn soon, then it will be more expensive.

Yesterday I watched Hot Shot 6 and i am loving the superman song. Also watched Hei Tang Qun Xia Chuan 6. Today, maybe i'll watch wu di san bao mei though i though the starting is dame lame. ok...tml i am going out no matter what. Let's see where mr chua bringing me. haha...

-11:38 AM

Been rather free in the morning, read some blogs in morning.
Seen a lot of people not really happy about life, about people, about circumstances they are in.
well, if you happen to be one of those that is reading my post now, i do hope that you will understand that actually things will past.

Many times, because we are down, we let satan input negative thoughts and ideal into our lifes. Words like you are forsaken, nobody cares, nobody knows and nobody will accept you.
One thing for sure i wanna say: You know clearly in your heart that Jesus Loves you, He never forsaken you, He cares for you, He knows and he will accept you
Cause He created you, He knows your sitting up and down, He knew you before time and knew what you are going to do in future.

There are a lot of stages in life, but i will categories it into 3 stages: down , stagnant and up.

Down: depressed, negative thoughts, felt alone and want to be that way. enjoying the state while knowing that it cant be always that way, there must be a change

Stagnant: like me now.. live has nothing great happening and nothing bad, just routine, bored with life, wanna make a change but no courage to break of the momentum

Up: Burning for God, wanting to do lots of things for Him knowing that He loves and never gives up.

In my life experience, I faced Up when i was in JYF, young, and daring, chionging at the ideals we had for God, then when it came to poly, life became stagnant or down . By relationship issue. by friends leaving the community, by thinking that actually i am losing myself and depressed at that thought.
After that, I am at work. I felt that no one understand me, because that time most YF and I really mean almost all except jy and rebec is schooling and no one understand the stress to be earning money for home.

Now, though i am still stagnant, but i am trying to figure what path God wants me to take with yuhang. One thing i realise is that happy also have to live, not happy also have to live, why not choose to be happy. Though i know some enjoy being unhappy, or in the state of unhappiness, but i urge you bros and sis, be strong. One day when you look back , i hope your memories is sweet and by that time, i hope you will be standing at a position where you will be given the Love, Joy Peace of God.


-9:48 AM

Hey, when you study in school or when u go to work, do you have an eye candy.
Girls you all should understand, many times eye candy can increase our motivation to doing a thing or going to an event.

But having the courage to change the relationship from an eye candy to a friend in hoping for him to be your boyfriend is courage.
That is what happen in a lot of Taiwan idol drama series.
They will show how a simple simple girl will fall in love with the most prominent, rich, handsome and charming guy and how eventually the guy will love her back.

Well, perhaps before I got attached i used to have too, one way or rather, knowingly or unknowingly. Cai been an eye candy before too, after the friend stage. we went into the 'ai mei' relationship and he has often caught my attention whenever he is nearby. It seems like a sensor that could always sense the smell, the look , the prescence of him.

Anyway, here comes the main point. Cai is being an eye candy again and not by me. haha... Not trying to boast my boyfriend but it is a fact that this china girl tried her best to get in touch with him. Though she only saw him in class and didnt have the courage to talk to him. Adding him on friendster, sending her friend to check yu out. hee.. well, now she mentioned during msn session with yu that she hopes to visit our church.

well, i am totally confident of my love with yu and now i am still fine with regard to this matter. Perhaps this is God-given chance to reach out. Like what pr chua said, it is better to share our faith with them here then in their own country. Well, lets see what happen.


-11:54 AM

Ok, there is this group of people gathering behind me now.

Discussing about the mistake that I've just made.


I forgot to put the retention form in front of the document.


And passing over, they didnt checked the thing and in the end, my company might need to pay $1000++ for the little mistake i made.


Kinda sian diao. i simply felt guilty that i cause so many trouble.





Been tired after the beef noodle for lunch.


Finished Smile Pasta yesterday. Well, I like this show cause i thought the couple is in the most intense part of a relationship.


Like both of them like each other yet dun wanna say, making each one the heart pumping


You got what i mean lah.





My stage of that should be happening like 3 years ago. that time yu dun reply message and such.


Actually at that point of time i felt rather lost... but i know every part of a relationship is sweet.


And now, though we are quite -------- nothing really special happening or what, but i believe i should find the sweetness here as well.

Hee~ this picture is what i got when i came back from lunch, opening my email.

It does cheer up my day a bit... thanks Cai cai

-6:21 PM

YF
JYF

Alice
Christopher
Doreen
Esther
Florence
Hannah
Ivy
Pastor Jervin
JianCong
Kaien
Kairen
Kaisiong
Kaiwei
Magdalene & Willliam
Michel
Pastor Ming Kang
Monica
Monica's shop
Pamela
Rita
Samantha
Siling
Siyang
Siyuan
Wenguang
Xiaojia
Yinhuan
Yijie
YiXin
YunRui
ZhiTeng



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