rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Friday, October 22, 2010
-9:52 AM
I am having my driving test on monday, and thus I am having to go for practice every day since wednesday.
Didn't know if I will pass but all I could do is try my best ba.
Lately haven been really disorientated.
Been busy with house thing. Actually i didnt do anything. Yuhang is doing all the work. I just choose the colors and he will communicate to ah bok the contractor.
Things with Yvonne (yuhang's colleague) just died down and now it is michelle and chloe. Though chloe (the sale manager) had quit, I know she has been emailing yuhang, smsing him to go out and such. will call him bb (meaning baby I believe). Though yuhang didnt reply her sms, he didnt reject her as well. She ask him out, he just said he is going out with me those kinda thing.
Well, disappointed is sure cause I have told him sooo many times that he shld make a stand else it is going to affect me. Now the following reasons does not support me anymore.
1) I don't like it, and thus I want u to reject
2) (Crying) I am not comfortable with it.
3) If you love me, stop doing that.
4) Be a God-pleasing BF
I tried hard to explain that our relationship is all abt God. That we should focus on HIM and bring each other closer to HIM, but when I turn his attention, his attention didnt seems to get caught up with God. Instead, he sees that my link with him is drifted. And all these other distractions became a huge temptation for him to compare me with them. Probably that is part of the reason only.
Probably I am a bad gf. I knew Rebec used to tell me that I tend to takes things for granted and I totally admit it. I thought that me and yuhang is v stable. I thought that now that we are going to get married, I should bring the focus back (Though many times I am lazy as well). I knew many times I have taken him for granted. Now I am quite lost... what should I do, where should be eyes be looking.
I don't want to be those gf that will go down to the girls to scold them or slap them. Before I choose yu, I knew he is a guy who doesnt reject people. And that was the reason why I dare to confess my feelings. However, at least one point proven, girl cant change a guy. And prob to say he cant change me as well (that I tend to take things for granted).
Isnt love suppose to be all giving?
So what now?
When will all the complaints stop and we stop focusing on ourself?
Why the things of the world seems to blind us from matters of eternal value.
Prob I am having menses soon. PMSing.
